You Don't Need Anyone Who Doesn't Want To Be There

Photo by  Amy Treasure  on  Unsplash

Photo by Amy Treasure on Unsplash

I found myself wondering what went wrong between us and sometimes there's no answer, or you have to know you won't get an answer. You just have to accept things for what they are and let them go because holding on is only going to break you more.

I find myself wondering why I can't help but text you back almost instantly when you can go days without answering. I find myself wondering why I have to double text you to get your attention. I find myself questioning why I always fall for people like you – the ones who I know are bad for me from the start but I still go for because I have a tiny ounce of hope that maybe I can change them. But it never works out because you can't change people and thinking, maybe this time will be different is setting myself up for disappointment 

And I realized I don't need anyone who doesn't want to be there. I've always known, actually but it's easier to forget when you like someone who doesn't reciprocate those feelings. It's easy to forget everything when you like someone who doesn't reciprocate those feelings.

It doesn't make not wanting them any easier. It doesn't stop me from wishing I'd hear your voice again and it doesn't ease the ache I feel when I wake up in the middle of the night and there's no text from you lighting up my phone. It's doesn't make it any easier, but I know I don't need anyone in my life who doesn't want to be there.

It's time to quit making something out of nothing because spending all this time and energy on you is burning me up from the inside. 

I don't need you – I never did. I just convinced myself that maybe this would work out. I convinced myself maybe what we had was too good for goodbye but you proved me wrong. 

It's gonna hurt like hell until it doesn't. 

But the most important thing to realize is you don't need anyone who doesn't want to be there.

Stop getting hung up over people who don't put you first. Stop bending over backwards for people who won't lift a finger for you. Stop allowing yourself to be so damn convenient for someone who never goes out of their way for you.

Stop settling for shitty relationships with people who don't give a fuck about you because you think the temporary attention feels better than being alone.

They will leave and it will leave you feeling even more lonely. 

Be alone because being alone is a hell of a lot better than being with someone who makes you feel alone. Being alone is better than fighting for attention from someone who is never going to give it to you. Being alone is better than dissecting every word from someone who lies through their teeth. 

Stop setting for booty calls and drunk messages. Stop thinking you don't deserve someone who is good to you because you do – we all deserve the love we constantly give to those who don't deserve it. We deserve that kind of love back.

Stop giving your attention to someone who doesn't want it. Stop double or triple texting to get someone to hang out with you. Stop being okay with someone who doesn't prioritize you and only comes around on their time. 

Be alone until you find someone who actually gives a shit about you because you don't need anyone who doesn't want to be there and anything less than that is bullshit.